Am I In A Movie???

Yesterday was one of those days where you are sure it is not really happening, either it's a dream, nightmare or you are in a movie...there is no way that it is real and if it is real the stress of it all seems to be making things worse....have you ever felt that way? Well, my day started out with a call from the nurse at Jayden's school, fifteen minutes after school started.  He came in to see her because he knew he needed a breathing treatment but he made it very clear to her he didn't want to leave school (he is trying to get perfect attendance so he can get a "Suns backpack" at the end of the quarter) but she said his color was really bad, his breathing, even after his treatment, was shallow and she didn't feel comfortable keeping him in school and that I should take him to the doctor's right away (disclaimer: he was at his Dad's the night before so I didn't see him before school otherwise I wouldn't have sent him to school).  So I quickly went to get him.  At the doctors office they informed me that he might need to go to the hospital as his blood oxygen level was dangerous low.  While dealing with that until 10pm, I got a phone call from my Mom telling me she got the test results from her CT scan she had last week, which by the way was ordered because she has had some serious abdominal pain that can't be linked to anything (i.e. appendix, kidney stones, etc.) and the results were: several nodules/cysts/tumor like masses on her lungs, liver and a 6x8x6 mass on her right side.  I remained calm while I was on the phone, telling her that it was a mistake, they were benign or maybe she had Valley Fever (although that wouldn't explain the liver or 6x8x6 mass) but it was my attempt at remaining calm.  After I was off the phone, I literally couldn't breathe, think or react.  I was in shock.  I still am, except all that keeps going on in my head now is, if it wasn't Cancer why would it be in so many different places? What are the chances that she has three different areas of her body with benign tumors or that they aren't all linked even though there are so many? This is the vicious cycle I am on right now...so fun!

So there it is...my day from hell, literally not trying to use that as a curse word...I really do feel like the devil is so trying to use this as a way to get a foothold on us and it won't work! I will not let the stress make me impatient with the ones I love.  I just kept saying "Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love" - Ephesians 4:2, it's all I could do to not let the stress spew out of my mouth hurting all of the people I love around me.  And, if yesterday was a movie I am seriously not going to be a movie person for much longer ;)

Seriously though, learn from the day I had yesterday, anything can happen at any moment, love your family, friends, etc. don't let stress crush your children's spirit, show them and others you love them in your actions and don't ever miss an opportunity to tell people how much you care with your words.